I need prayer

[StellaGirl]

I have been in and out of the church since I was 8 years old. The Lord kept me and has never let me go. All the years I was in denial and was stubborn, the Lord held my heart in his hands. I KNOW this because he would give me dreams and also he spoke to my heart frequently.

Now that I have been back (for almost 4 years now) things are getting tough. I WANT to hold on and I WILL hold on. I know this isn't going to be an easy ride but he never promises it will be "easy". I desperately need a refilling of his Spirit. Josh desperately needs prayer as well. It is SOOO hard for me to play the male AND the female spiritual role in this relationship.

When we first got together, Josh was SO into prayer. He would go to the alter EVERY time he could. Soon enough, he got discouraged. Now, he just feels as if the Lord doesn't care. He has told me on more than one occasion, that if the Lord wanted him to serve him, he would have changed him. He needs prayer to be understanding to what the Lord CAN and WILL do if we ALLOW him to. He needs to know that he has to ALLOW it.

2 months ago, we were hurting financially. Someone from the internet wired us $500 out of the blue because she felt "led" to. We all know that the Lord placed that on her heart. Josh knew it too and cried about it. He SAW a blessing! I thought that would turn his heart in the right direction. But the devil played on that as well. Josh's parents are alcoholics and have a lot of influence in his life. His father is controlling and will do anything he can, to get Josh to be the man he wants him to be. The other night, Ken called me and told me I was a "psycho" and I had issues because I was a "Jesus freak". YES! I'll admit it! I'm a JESUS FREAK! I love my Jesus, what are you going to do? Heh heh, that's not what I said, but I sure wanted to. They have never accepted me because of my "Christian" lifestyle. I know that it's just unfamilliar territory to them and they feel intimidated. But I really feel that THEY are what is standing in the way of Josh's salvation.

I have been praying for a while for the Lord to open Josh's eyes so he can see that what they are doing is NOT right. Please agree with me on this. Josh needs to see the kind of hold his dad has on him. Josh needs to NOT be afraid to stand up on his OWN 2 feet and be the man that the Lord intends for him to be.

Josh KNOWS the truth. He has just grown cold to it and has lost the understanding he needs.

I might be rambling on this thread and I hope you all get the just of it all. I'll have to read it over and see if all that needed to be said, was said.


LOVE YA'LL

[BrotherBallard]

StellaGirl,

Welcome to GNC!!!

I too, have been in or around Church since I was 7. So much has happened in my life. Let me share a little with you, this may help, it may not. I was a backslider in the middle '80's. God led me back to Truth! At that time, I was 17; I did not see His Grace in my life, even though I thought I knew it all. Well I continued and I tried to be the "Perfect" Christian. I did this for over 13 years, I tried to hold all the Standards, I tried to do everything I was told, I was very submissive to EVERYTHING I thought was required of me. Well my world crumbled around me in 2000. I ended up going to another Church. Here is the Good Part!!! God gave me a revelation of Grace that in the previous 22 years I never knew about. I went to so many different Churches during that 22 years span that it would make your head spin. My mother and step dad were moving all over the place. Anyway, Grace was revealed to me through Pastor's teaching, that it blew my mind! I was always under the impression that if I messed up one time and if the Rapture took place I would go straight to hell. My view of God was that He had an Iron fist and He was waiting to use it on me if I got out of line. That is UNBIBLICAL; He came to this earth to die for us because He loves us so much. He is My FATHER, and just as I'm a father, if my children mess up, do you think I'm going to punish them unmercifully? Not on your life!!! I will correct them, but at the same time I will hold them, talk to them, and love them unconditionally! Now how I feel towards my children, multiply it infinitely, and that's how Jesus loves me. Or in this case, this is how Jesus Loves You and Josh!!! God wants to hold you; He wants to throw His arms around You. HE DIED FOR YOU!!!

I now see that if I mess up, and I will, that doesn't mean I'll go straight to Hell, if the rapture takes place (I'm not talking about outright rebellious sin in this instance). Oh no, God knows we are humans, and as humanity we are full of failures, mistakes, and He also knows we will sin, but He loves us just the way we are!!! StellaGirl, I now have an understanding of Grace and that the Holy Ghost in me will have to do the work, I can't, I mess up every time I try. Jesus lives through me, now the standards that were a ruler or LAW that I had to live up to are no longer issues in my life! The Standards I live by are only by what Jesus is doing within me! Grace is extended to me in ways I never knew.

Remember when you feel like you can’t make it, you can’t on your own, it’s only by HIS GRACE that you can make it and it’s Jesus that is doing the work:

Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me.

Also, when you feel you can’t make it any longer and that you feel too weak to press on remember this scripture:

II Corinthians 12:9 And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.

At your weakest time that’s when Christ is strongest, because we learn to trust in Him in the worse trials, temptations, etc., that we go through!!!

StellaGirl, Keep the Faith!!!

In His Name!!!

[StellaGirl]

Thank you Bro. Ballard, that was beautiful and also held meaning!!

[jhlent]

I have been in and out of the church since I was 8 years old. The Lord kept me and has never let me go. All the years I was in denial and was stubborn, the Lord held my heart in his hands. I KNOW this because he would give me dreams and also he spoke to my heart frequently.

Now that I have been back (for almost 4 years now) things are getting tough. I WANT to hold on and I WILL hold on.
[JHLent] That’s ok if things start getting rough – many things will come you way – BUT – al ways remember YOU have Friends that you can turn to for Help – Encouragement – Prayer…..

Things are changing for YOU – just keep trying to look ahead

I know this isn't going to be an easy ride but he never promises it will be "easy". I desperately need a refilling of his Spirit.
[JHLent] FIRST – we will work on YOU…..:)
By getting YOU firmly grounded it will be easier for You to set the example that You need. For the WHOLE Family.

Josh desperately needs prayer as well. It is SOOO hard for me to play the male AND the female spiritual role in this relationship.
[JHLent] You are right – it is not Gods design for the Woman to be the Spiritual Lead in the Home. – BUT – There are times that You just have to step up to the task and LEAD – Allow the Lord to work through You & With You….
Keep a good attitude about it….
AND also know when it is time to step back and allow Him to take the place that the Lord has designed for him.

When we first got together, Josh was SO into prayer. He would go to the alter EVERY time he could. Soon enough, he got discouraged. Now, he just feels as if the Lord doesn't care. He has told me on more than one occasion, that if the Lord wanted him to serve him, he would have changed him. He needs prayer to be understanding to what the Lord CAN and WILL do if we ALLOW him to. He needs to know that he has to ALLOW it.
[JHLent] Keep your self on the Prayer list here….
http://www.apostolicprayer.com
Make sure to post to it 2 or 3 times a week……
Start finding People/Saints/Friends that will start Praying with You….
And START Expecting CHANGE……

2 months ago, we were hurting financially. Someone from the internet wired us $500 out of the blue because she felt "led" to. We all know that the Lord placed that on her heart. Josh knew it too and cried about it. He SAW a blessing! I thought that would turn his heart in the right direction. But the devil played on that as well.
[JHLent] Don’t let that get you down….. there is something still very positive about the whole thing, He was still able to be reached…. His heart is still tender…. He has NOT closed himself off to the Lord……
And that is something to Work With.

Josh's parents are alcoholics and have a lot of influence in his life. His father is controlling and will do anything he can, to get Josh to be the man he wants him to be.
[JHLent] That is ok - YOU just need to know….
1 John 4:4 - Ye are of God,<<-{that’s You Jill}… because greater is he that is in you, than he that is in the world.
You have One that is in You that is GREATEST of All…. Your Spiritualinfluence will be able to overcome this – TRUST ME – It will happen

The other night, Ken called me and told me I was a "psycho" and I had issues because I was a "Jesus freak". YES! I'll admit it! I'm a JESUS FREAK! I love my Jesus, what are you going to do? Heh heh, that's not what I said, but I sure wanted to. They have never accepted me because of my "Christian" lifestyle. I know that it's just unfamilliar territory to them and they feel intimidated. But I really feel that THEY are what is standing in the way of Josh's salvation.
[JHLent] That’s ok if they haven’t accepted you because – YOU and YOUR Family does not need their influence in Your home….

I have been praying for a while for the Lord to open Josh's eyes so he can see that what they are doing is NOT right. Please agree with me on this.
[JHLent] Already in the Works Little Lady…..

Josh needs to see the kind of hold his dad has on him. Josh needs to NOT be afraid to stand up on his OWN 2 feet and be the man that the Lord intends for him to be.
[JHLent] He will get there – You just keep Praying and have Faith & keep Trusting in the Lord.

Josh KNOWS the truth. He has just grown cold to it and has lost the understanding he needs.
[JHLent] We will pray that the Fires of Renewal/Revival are started in him again – IN JESUS NAME…..

I might be rambling on this thread and I hope you all get the just of it all. I'll have to read it over and see if all that needed to be said, was said.

LOVE YA'LL Little Sister……(see doesn’t that sound good..)

The Lord hears your Prayers & your cries…. – He is FAITHFUL to answer them in His timing and understanding.

You just keep holding on, and pushing forward.
I PROMISE things will start changing in your life – Give the control over to the Lord and allow Him to lead, at His pace, on His path…..

You HAVE come such a long way – You are doing GREAT – Your AWESOME……

Don’t ever forget that…. – You are SPECIAL…
Do not worry about the past – all the past can do for you now is cause you regrets….

Lets start looking to the future – and ALL the many wonderful things that the Lord wants to do for you – and through You……

You have an Awesome testimony – You are an Over-comer….



And least of all – Your Special to ME……………………………

[lellingsworth]

StellaGirl,
Sister, what you have to remember that he KNOWS the truth. He will never be happy in the world doing worldy things because he is not of the world. No matter hard they try to make themselves be a part of it, they will always stand apart from others. Once you TOUCH God, you are never the same. It will bother him when he lays down to close his eyes to sleep.

You will be his biggest witness by NOT making any waves but by setting an example for him. But please don't pray rocks in his bed. I know from experience, true story, it will only make your life harder too. I prayed rocks in my husband's bed and he was not able to work for more than a year. I would check up on him to see if he was looking for a job. He really was.

But then, one of my sisters, here, told me to quit praying rocks in his bed and praying blessings for him. That was a few months ago and now my husband has his own business. He is really doing well and I am proud of him for what he has done.

Everything is in God's time, not your time. Let God unfold the rose. He always gets it right. (God wants all of his heart, not half of it.)

[lellingsworth]

I do have one thing to say about the past, which I told my brother.

You can't leave the past behind if you keep picking up the suitcase and taking it with you.

[ddc101]

Sister Lani,
Amen girl.I am proud of you.He that winneth souls is wise.


Sister Stella,
Hang in there.Desire the Lord with all your heart and mind and soul.You just need a good Holy Ghost revival in your soul.Jesus will do it for you.
Your husband is right.He needs change.He needs that change that gets ahold of you and makes you into something different.We have to understand that within ourselves we are nothing but in Christ...You in him and him in you we change into what he wants us to be.Your husband is actually not that far from Jesus as he realizes this and that is good.Its a step in the right direction.What I sense him telling you Stella is that he doesn't want to be a hypocrite.That is good.That is exactly the way my husband felt.He has the heart of David...a man after Gods own heart.At least he is for real about it and admits it.There are men who pretend to be in Jesus and just put on the ritz and then there are men who get real and admit they are but dust and Jesus is the difference.Pray for a spiritual blessing to come your husbands way and show him that you love him regardless of his shortcomings and whether or not he is acting christian.That sister is the conversation that is going to win him.lv sis.c

[lellingsworth]

Sister Lani,
Amen girl.I am proud of you.He that winneth souls is wise.
Thanks DDC.I couldn't have done it without you and a few others here. You see, all that you went through was for a purpose. But I am still buying a push lawn mower, cuz it ain't over yet. :)
It's funny that you use that scripture. That's "you know who's". HE quotes it all the time. Funny, huh.


Sister Stella,
Hang in there.Desire the Lord with all your heart and mind and soul.You just need a good Holy Ghost revival in your soul.Jesus will do it for you.
Your husband is right.He needs change.He needs that change that gets ahold of you and makes you into something different.We have to understand that within ourselves we are nothing but in Christ...You in him and him in you we change into what he wants us to be.Your husband is actually not that far from Jesus as he realizes this and that is good.Its a step in the right direction.What I sense him telling you Stella is that he doesn't want to be a hypocrite.That is good.That is exactly the way my husband felt.He has the heart of David...a man after Gods own heart.At least he is for real about it and admits it.There are men who pretend to be in Jesus and just put on the ritz and then there are men who get real and admit they are but dust and Jesus is the difference.Pray for a spiritual blessing to come your husbands way and show him that you love him regardless of his shortcomings and whether or not he is acting christian.That sister is the conversation that is going to win him.lv sis.c

StellaGirl-
You listen to DDC and you'll get through. As she said, your husband doesn't want to be a hypocrite. And that's exactly what's keeping mine out. They know there is only two ways, right and wrong. Even if they don't admit it. Men are just more stubbord to listen to God, I have heard. Pray those blessings, they really work. Quit praying for God to hit him up side the head. I will tell you this though, my husband comes from a long line of Pentecost and that has hurt him and some of his relatives MORE because of their nagging about church instead of the love and acceptance of God. I am here to make lemonade for him.

[StellaGirl]

You have a very good point. I would rather see Josh come back to the Lord that way (with blessings). If the Lord were to slap him in the face, it might not have the effect that it should right away. It would all depend on his situation at that time. I pray for Josh to see the GLORY of the Lord through me and the children. These children pray for him at the dinner table with him sitting there, you can hear their humble requests at night before they go to sleep. THESE children are calling out for their ALMIGHTY Daddy to reach their wee daddy. A childs prayers are powerful! I owe it to the Lord for helping me raise these children with his love. If he hadn't been guiding me, I would have failed on that. I know someday soon, that Josh will see how happy we are living for and serving the Lord. I know someday soon, he will want to get a piece of the everlasting yummy pie. I believe this in my heart and I stand firm on this promise. It's just getting through that valley in between here and there, that I'm going to need to hang onto my Daddys hand and let him lead me the whole way.

Some days it will feel impossible, I know. But...I have a life full of testimony and also my children to look at and remember that God is FOR me not against me.

THANK YOU JESUS!

And thank you all for responding to this very hard time in my life. It feels good knowing I have Brothers and Sisters all over the US pulling for me.

Love you all!

[tufluv]

A childs prayers are powerful! :tup:
AMEN! As a child ((catholic) myself..I prayed for my family every night and we were all okay, for all those years for the most part.
And it sustained me through my long lost life, until I was finally given the privilege of coming to HIS whole truth, nearly 6 yrs ago!
Then my husband/sons followed suit. All but presently the oldest one, but I know he will..he is at least working on it.
GOD loves us to come to HIM as little children! Hallelujah, what a great FATHER we have, that loves us so-o-o much.

I often have to remind myself when I lose patience with anyone...that Jesus loves that one too! So I'd better do so also! :D
It feels good knowing I have Brothers and Sisters all over the US pulling for me.
I hope you count me as one...I know how you feel, its good to have found this CAFE..and although we have our ups and downs here, what family doesn't!? :spin:

[ddc101]

Here is a good report concerning children praying.
I am teaching bible study to a new famiy that lives way out in the country.
I mean way out!
They come to services on Sunday nights and bring their two year old granddaughter.She will be three next week.Anyway the childs mother has been telling her that she has been listening to this little girl and when they are all in bed at night she hears the child praying and calling out her families names.I was told she gets kind of loud and says ,"Thank you Jesus,Thank you Jesus."
The grandma says its because at church the little girl just sits and stares at,
"Sister Cooper the whole time." And when she goes home she imitates me.
Yesterday the grandmas says this little girl sang and praised and prayed all day.
Heres what I think.She is going to get the Holy Ghost and the whole family including her unsaved mommy and daddy are going to receive it as well.The mommy told me that she will see me at Sunday night service.She wants to see what goes on in church.Amen.
The prayers of children are pure hearted prayers.Jesus will answer those prayers.lv sis.c

[survivor4christ]

Lord,

I thank you that you have been keeping Stella most of her life. That you have always drawn her back to you, even in her rebellious times. Your mercies are indeed abundant!

I thank you that out of the mouths of babes you have ordained praise! Keep using those precious angels for your Glory! Use them mightily now and when they are grown for Your Glory!

Encourage Stella to believe Your Word that says, that if she would only believe, her and her house shall be saved! GIve her strength to stand on Your Word when the enemy comes in like a flood in her marriage. Bind Stella and her husband together with cords of love and draw him with Your lovingkindness; use her as an instrument of Your Love to reach out to her husband. Make his heart pliable and let him learn to focus on You and no one else. When salvation and deliverance is manifested in his life, use him mightily for Your Glory! I thank you, Lord, for what you are doing in this family, in the name of Jesus!

Amen

[StellaGirl]

And least of all – Your Special to ME……………………………
LEAST of all? hmmmm:p. My dad sure got a kick out of that one. He said "yep, that's John!" You're alright John, I still love ya!

Oh yeah everyone, my real name is Jill:yeah:. I don't mind if you call me Stella cause I love that name, but you can also call me Jill. Whichever you prefer.;)

[BurningforJesus]

Here is a good report concerning children praying.
I am teaching bible study to a new famiy that lives way out in the country.
I mean way out!
They come to services on Sunday nights and bring their two year old granddaughter.She will be three next week.Anyway the childs mother has been telling her that she has been listening to this little girl and when they are all in bed at night she hears the child praying and calling out her families names.I was told she gets kind of loud and says ,"Thank you Jesus,Thank you Jesus."
The grandma says its because at church the little girl just sits and stares at,
"Sister Cooper the whole time." And when she goes home she imitates me.
Yesterday the grandmas says this little girl sang and praised and prayed all day.
Heres what I think.She is going to get the Holy Ghost and the whole family including her unsaved mommy and daddy are going to receive it as well.The mommy told me that she will see me at Sunday night service.She wants to see what goes on in church.Amen.
The prayers of children are pure hearted prayers.Jesus will answer those prayers.lv sis.c


Amen, Sister!!! I totally agree with you on that one. :tup:
Sooo ooo how did church go this morning? I am ;ooking forward to that report for Sunday night service. (We have had our Sunday night service and had two baptisms!!!! (THANK YOU JESUS!!!)

God certainly uses the children to soften hearts everywhere.

....Sister Jill I am praying for you :)

Burning

[Heather Taylor]

Sister Jill, we had a Ladies meeting last Thursday night and some scriptures were given to us to sustain us through the really tough times. I hope they help.

When we are in trouble God has promised to be our:

Refuge (Psalm 9:9) The LORD also will be a refuge for the oppressed, a refuge in times of trouble.

Uplifter (Psalm 9:13) Have mercy upon me, O LORD; consider my trouble which I suffer of them that hate me, thou that liftest me up from the gates of death.

Rock (Psalm 27:5) For in the time of trouble he shall hide me in his pavilion: in the secret of his tabernacle shall he hide me; he shall set me up upon a rock.

Strength (Psalm 37:39-40) But the salvation of the righteous is of the LORD: he is their strength in the time of trouble. And the LORD shall help them, and deliver them from the wicked, and save them, because they trust in him.

Present Help (Psalm 46:1) God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.

Defence (Psalm 59:16) But I will sing of thy power; yea, I will sing aloud of thy mercy in the morning: for thou has been my defence and refuge in the day of my trouble.

Deliverer (Psalm 107:6) Then they cried unto the LORD in their trouble and he delivered them out of their distresses.

Reviver (Psalm 138:7) Though I walk in the midst of trouble, thou wilt revive me: thou shalt stretch forth thine hand against the wrath of mine enemies, and thy right hand shall save me.

I will be praying for you (and I'm in Australia :angel: )

[BurningforJesus]

I will be praying for you (and I'm in Australia )Quoted by Sister Heather Taylor......:

Not to out numbered,:) I am also living in Australia, though not a native Australian, I am from one of their close neighbouring countries. New Zealand.

I will be praying for you. I am looking forward to what the Lord is going to do in your life. He loves us soooooo much and wants the best for us.

Burning

[jhlent]

“I” am looking forward to making a trip out there to see you ……



After I leave Michigan and get back home to St. Paul (575 miles) I will set aside some to make a trip out to visit you…..

A 1150 mile weekend drive......:goof:

[lellingsworth]

Sister Stella Girl: Last Sunday at church, a scripture popped out at me and for some reason, I thought of YOU.

Genesis 18:14
"... AT THE APPOINTED TIME I WILL RETURN TO YOU, ACCORDING TO THE TIME OF LIFE...."

Next time you all are sitting around the kitchen dinner praying for Daddy to come back to church, just quietly smile at eachother without saying a word, knowing it's gonna happen.

[jason_bright_28]

I have been in and out of the church since I was 8 years old. The Lord kept me and has never let me go. All the years I was in denial and was stubborn, the Lord held my heart in his hands. I KNOW this because he would give me dreams and also he spoke to my heart frequently.

Now that I have been back (for almost 4 years now) things are getting tough. I WANT to hold on and I WILL hold on. I know this isn't going to be an easy ride but he never promises it will be "easy". I desperately need a refilling of his Spirit. Josh desperately needs prayer as well. It is SOOO hard for me to play the male AND the female spiritual role in this relationship.

When we first got together, Josh was SO into prayer. He would go to the alter EVERY time he could. Soon enough, he got discouraged. Now, he just feels as if the Lord doesn't care. He has told me on more than one occasion, that if the Lord wanted him to serve him, he would have changed him. He needs prayer to be understanding to what the Lord CAN and WILL do if we ALLOW him to. He needs to know that he has to ALLOW it.

2 months ago, we were hurting financially. Someone from the internet wired us $500 out of the blue because she felt "led" to. We all know that the Lord placed that on her heart. Josh knew it too and cried about it. He SAW a blessing! I thought that would turn his heart in the right direction. But the devil played on that as well. Josh's parents are alcoholics and have a lot of influence in his life. His father is controlling and will do anything he can, to get Josh to be the man he wants him to be. The other night, Ken called me and told me I was a "psycho" and I had issues because I was a "Jesus freak". YES! I'll admit it! I'm a JESUS FREAK! I love my Jesus, what are you going to do? Heh heh, that's not what I said, but I sure wanted to. They have never accepted me because of my "Christian" lifestyle. I know that it's just unfamilliar territory to them and they feel intimidated. But I really feel that THEY are what is standing in the way of Josh's salvation.

I have been praying for a while for the Lord to open Josh's eyes so he can see that what they are doing is NOT right. Please agree with me on this. Josh needs to see the kind of hold his dad has on him. Josh needs to NOT be afraid to stand up on his OWN 2 feet and be the man that the Lord intends for him to be.

Josh KNOWS the truth. He has just grown cold to it and has lost the understanding he needs.

I might be rambling on this thread and I hope you all get the just of it all. I'll have to read it over and see if all that needed to be said, was said.


LOVE YA'LL
Sister,
I can relate to your husband being influenced by his parents. I have been married for 2 years and for the longest when she tried to tell me how my Mom and Dad were, it caused an argument, and because I thought that she was trying to keep me away from them. Today, it is just the opposite, i have seen the truth and know that my parents are drug addicts and drunks. They just want approval from me. To this day, they never have had my approval nor will they ever, thanks to my wife showing me. AND her prayers. We had to go to extreme and totally alienate both of my parents, and it was the best choice I ever made. I'm not saying that will happen, but my whole life has been influenced by those two. When we (I) made the decision to not talk to them or converse, we are very, very happy. Me and my wife are going to join you in prayer for the situation, and I believe that God will come on the seen if you don't give in to the Enemies distractions. Whatever comes, thank God for the good in each situation. God may/or may not be carrying you and your husband through this to help you in your walk with him. Or maybe it's just that he wants you to trust him. Trust him. What else is there? Let's get God's attention through prayer, Amen? Me and my wife have been through alot, including; financial, spiritual. But, if we turn away from God because of the circumstances that come, he will never be able to show us his fatihfullness due to the lack of our faithfullness to him. Just stand still and let God do his thing. It will all work out eventually.
Bro. Jason jason_bright_28@charter.net or <jennifer_bright_30@msn.com

[jason_bright_28]

Hi,
My name is Jennifer Bright (Jennifer_Bright_30@msn.com), email me and maybe we can talk. The Lord has always kept me safe from everything wrong my whole life too. Even when I didn't follow him, as I should have. I have never done drugs, smoked, and only a tiny bit of drinking. No abuse of really any sort have I faced in my childhood. My husband on the other hand as lived a life as your husband has. He was abused by drugged up and alcoholic parents, that didn't care if he lived or died. We were brought together by God and the devil has been trying his hardest to tear this marriage apart. Jason, my husband, had the Holy Ghost when I met him, and he showed me the truth. God kept me safe for a reason, I believe with my heart that it was to be a Minister's Wife. I see a lot of you in me and I feel that I and my husband came across your letter for a reason. For you and your husband. For you to know your not alone, my husband was controlled by his flesh for a long time, threw his mom, and his backsliding with God. It got to the point were all we did was argue and fight. After that he started leaving and living with his mom ( who allows the devil to control her), for weeks at a time. Leaving the kids and me not knowing anything, sometimes he would even take the car leaving me with no way to getting the childern to school or even to the hospital if something were to happen. Twice I even put in missing person reports, because I didn't know were his was, he just left and did not return or even call until 2 or 3 days later. After a few times this happening his mother started saying to him "No woman comes between you and me" and to me "I WILL get him back". And the second to last time he left me, he cheated on me. Even after that I forgave him and told him that I loved him and he came back. Not even 5 days later he went back to his mom's. Even with the kids and I begging him not to leave. Threw 2 1/2 years of going threw this I too have given the devil place in my marriage. But I know that the devil has done ALL of this because he hates what God brought together and wants it destroyed for ever. At those times I had noone to turn to, but God, also during this times I felt God in me more than ever, working in me and through me making me stronger and better, than I was before. It got to the point that I had to leave Jason to his own demons, I did not call or make attempts to see him, all I did was pray and then pray some more. Jason had to have God bring him to his knees, while at rock bottom. Anything I said or did only pushed him away further. Ten days after that HE asked to come back and ever since then he and I have a Stronger and Better marriage then before, Jason is treating me as Jesus Loves the church. Mind you, we have our moments, but they are nothing but moments.
To date we go to Church together, we are raising, teaching and showing our kids about God, we are able to understand what God needs from both of us to have a successful marriage. ALL because of what we have gone through it Has ONLY MADE US STRONGER and brought us closer to together as never before. At the hard times the book of Job really helped me. Just like Job, God gave him back everything and more. But Job kept his focus (like me) on God, even when everybody else was against him. I want you to email me your phone number, if you feel comfortable, I will call you ( I have unlimited long distants) we can talk as long as you want. I feel that God had my husband and I run across your letter for a reason.... He when Prayer for you tonight and at church Sunday. We will be here if you need us, ANYTIME, day or night.
Jennifer_Bright_30@msn.com
Love you and May God Bless You Always,
Sis Jennifer

[jhlent]

I have been in and out of the church since I was 8 years old.

Now that I have been back (for almost 4 years now) things are getting tough.

I desperately need a refilling of his Spirit.

Josh desperately needs prayer as well.

Josh KNOWS the truth. He has just grown cold to it and has lost the understanding he needs.

LOVE YA'LL PLEASE remember to continue to pray for – Jill/ Stella and Josh….


They are in such need.
I am trying to work it out that I will be able to go visit them fri. or sat.


Pray that I will be sensitive enough to the direction of My Lord….
This meeting will be a very emotional time for all – While I look forward to this reunion - I want to be able to Minister Freely as My Lord Directs….

I am looking for things to happen……………………………………:tup:

[milady]

I have been in and out of the church since I was 8 years old. The Lord kept me and has never let me go. All the years I was in denial and was stubborn, the Lord held my heart in his hands. I KNOW this because he would give me dreams and also he spoke to my heart frequently.

Now that I have been back (for almost 4 years now) things are getting tough. I WANT to hold on and I WILL hold on. I know this isn't going to be an easy ride but he never promises it will be "easy". I desperately need a refilling of his Spirit. Josh desperately needs prayer as well. It is SOOO hard for me to play the male AND the female spiritual role in this relationship.

When we first got together, Josh was SO into prayer. He would go to the alter EVERY time he could. Soon enough, he got discouraged. Now, he just feels as if the Lord doesn't care. He has told me on more than one occasion, that if the Lord wanted him to serve him, he would have changed him. He needs prayer to be understanding to what the Lord CAN and WILL do if we ALLOW him to. He needs to know that he has to ALLOW it.

2 months ago, we were hurting financially. Someone from the internet wired us $500 out of the blue because she felt "led" to. We all know that the Lord placed that on her heart. Josh knew it too and cried about it. He SAW a blessing! I thought that would turn his heart in the right direction. But the devil played on that as well. Josh's parents are alcoholics and have a lot of influence in his life. His father is controlling and will do anything he can, to get Josh to be the man he wants him to be. The other night, Ken called me and told me I was a "psycho" and I had issues because I was a "Jesus freak". YES! I'll admit it! I'm a JESUS FREAK! I love my Jesus, what are you going to do? Heh heh, that's not what I said, but I sure wanted to. They have never accepted me because of my "Christian" lifestyle. I know that it's just unfamilliar territory to them and they feel intimidated. But I really feel that THEY are what is standing in the way of Josh's salvation.

I have been praying for a while for the Lord to open Josh's eyes so he can see that what they are doing is NOT right. Please agree with me on this. Josh needs to see the kind of hold his dad has on him. Josh needs to NOT be afraid to stand up on his OWN 2 feet and be the man that the Lord intends for him to be.

Josh KNOWS the truth. He has just grown cold to it and has lost the understanding he needs.

I might be rambling on this thread and I hope you all get the just of it all. I'll have to read it over and see if all that needed to be said, was said.


LOVE YA'LL
I will be praying.
That is great that the Lord blessed you with $500 dollars

[StellaGirl]

First of all, I would like to start by saying JOHN I LOVE YOU! After I felt what was going on last night while you and Joshua were talking and I saw and heard the sincerity in his voice...I KNOW you were doing the great works of the Lord.

For all of you that don't know what happened last night:
Bro Lent came over for a visit. Right away, Josh took to him and really paid attention to him. Normally, it takes a while for Josh to even trust someone and feel comfortable enough talking about his "personal life" with them. He maybe knew Bro Lent for an hour and he was deep into conversation with him. After Bro. Lent left here last night, Josh apologized for not seeing what he was allowing his parents to do. I listened to him PRAY last night and it brought tears to my eyes. I am SO thankful that the Lord brought Bro Lent back into my life (after 13 years) and also moved through him to touch my life and the people in it. I owe the LORD all the praise for this one and I thank YOU Bro Lent for allowing the Lord to use you like that.

You are a WONDERFUL man Bro. Lent! The Lord REALLY TRULY has given you something special! I mean this with every bone in my body when I say I LOVE YOU!

This thread WILL continue to get better and you will see MORE of these great reports because I KNOW the Lord is doing something great here.

GOD BLESS YOU ALL!