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iasparrow
04-23-2003, 11:27 PM
Brothers & Sisters,

This will be long, please bear with me, I am wondering what happened to me 14 yrs ago, and I am looking for some insight as to what it could've meant.

I was 17 years old and currently attending the Lutheran church in which I had been raised. I had gotten a job with a fast food chain and began dating an older man about 20, he was what he called "Charismatic" and was aspiring to be a pastor after his fathers footsteps. He was very nice and respectful and I liked him alot. He called me about an hour before a date we had set and asked could we go see one of his friends sing in the choir at a church called "World Harvest", I was familiar with it from commercials saying they were Non-Denominational and I knew how much different the service would be from my strict Lutheran worship, so I said yes right away and he warned me no to be afraid if things got a little "rawdy".

As soon as we walked through the door folks were shaking my hand and asking me how I was and hugging me, I was embarassed but I liked it, I had gone to the Lutheran church for 17 years and barely knew any of the members, they were not friendly. Here goes.....As we watched his friend sing he told me he will not be a member to this church, but he wanted to support his friends singing, then Pastor Parsley asked that we pray in silence for a moment. Being that this was not my church and I was not like them, I did not pray - instead I looked around in awe of the massive size of this church and it's congregation. While doing this I had an experience unlike any I've ever had.

While looking around while the rest prayed, I began to feel a burning heat at the very top of my head, the heat slowly began to spread to my forhead, but there was no sweat, as the heat reached my eye level, water falls fell over my eyes so I could not see, which really freaked me out big time, the spread throughout the rest of my body until it left the very tips of my fingers and toes. I thought for sure my boyfriend would have noticed me struggling to wipe sweat from my face and trying to wipe tears from my eyes, which was all in vain because there were no tears or sweat, but as the waterfalls left my eyes I immediately looked over at him and he was still praying! No one had noticed me struggling!

I kept this to myself, waiting for some type of sickness to take me over, but it never happened. I became increasingly interested in what could have happened, so I asked my father who didn't attend any church and he slapped me on the back and said as he laughed "you just had heartburn!" I said "Heartburn don't put waterfalls over your eyes!" he said "I don't know, sorry honey".

I had another date with my boyfriend that evening and decided to break it to him risking that he might think me crazy and break up with me right then and there, instead of looking at me like I was crazy he smiled larger than I had ever seen him, and he said
"Peggy, don't you read your bible?" and I said "Yes, all of the time" and he said "What then is the symbol for the holy spirit?" and I thought about it and said "Fire" and he said smiling "Well... didn't you feel like your were on fire!" and I said "Yes!". But this was the extent of the conversation.

He and I broke up when he went away to school, and I married at the age of 18, and I kept going to the Lutheran church until I was about 23, I began noticing more and more that I didn't feel spiritually fed there, and why did they not teach about the Holy Spirit in more detail. I began watching John Hagee on the tv and realized, how could I keep attending there knowing that I am totally against all of what they teach. I believe in the Holy Ghost and other gifts, and laying on of hands and water baptizm.


I left and then experienced some really trying times in my marriage, in which I called on the Lord day and night to bring my husband out of "Bondage". Right before these trying times I had another strange occurance. I was praying and giving the Lord honor and praise and I told him I exalted him above all others and asked him to reveal himself to me even though he does not have to just to let me know he was there with me, my husband was asleep, just as I was finishing up my prayer I saw a flicker of a flame right in front of my face, I about jumped off the bed and I grabbed my husband but he didn't wake. My grandmother is Apostolic and I asked her what that could've meant and she said " Peggy, I don't mean to scare you but it could be one of two things, maybe the Lord revealed himself to you because you are about to experience something so devastating in your life, that he gave you the reassurance he knew you were going to need to overcome, or he may be giving you a gift" Sure enough two weeks later my husband left me and I had to fight the Lord and I had to fight the devil to free him out of his bondage!

Everything changed for me when I finally decided to try another church, named Turnpoint Apostolic. I wrote the pastor a letter to tell him what happened to me at World Harvest when I was 17 and how my husband and I have gone through alot to stay together. I told him I was ready to take back what the devil had stole from me and I was ready to be baptized as an adult. And a few weeks later he addressed me in church and said he got my letter and he wanted the church to pray for me and they did, he came out in the congregation and layed his hands on my head and prayed over me, he told me that the Lord will heal all that had been undone in my life, that he would answer my prayer for restoration. A couple of weeks later, I was baptized - but I did not recieve the Holy Ghost, and I was sad that I had not. The Lord has restored my marriage and it is better than ever, I didn't know it at the time but when I was baptized I was 3 weeks pregnant with a new baby that the Lord had blessed me with, I still believe that he was part of the Lord's plan to restore my marriage, my life has never been sweeter and what joy I have now!

I didn't stay in this church because I had not gotten the Holy Ghost yet and other self issues, am now sad that I allowed those self issues to stand in my way, I am thinking about going back. My mother and her brother have just been baptized there and before they were baptized they both recieved the Holy Ghost and spoke in tongues, when my mother told me that over the phone, I will admit I was jealous, I am now asking what can I do to prepare myself to recieve the Holy Ghost? Why do some get it without having a relationship with the Lord right away and some like me still have not.

This leaves me with confusion and eagerness to recieve, but most of all - if I have not gotten the Holy Ghost, what happened to me that peculiar night when I had waterfalls over my eyes?

Sis Rodgers

O2blikehim
04-24-2003, 12:18 AM
Sis Rodgers,
I am not sure that I can answer your question but I do think God was trying to get your attention. I am so excited for you. God is doing some awesome things for you!

Do not discount the things you have recieved before you speak in tongues. They are very real and God is leading you and your family to deeper truths. I encourage you to attend an Apostolic Church near you. If not Turnpoint Apostolic then perhaps another. If you care to share where you live we may be able to help you find a place of worship. At any rate, you must feel free to pursue your faith in God, and He will fill you and bless you.

In Christ, Stephen

O2blikehim
04-24-2003, 01:24 AM
I am sorry I did not check your profile. Here are a few churches in your area you may want to check out.

Turnpoint Apostolic Church - GROVEPORT, OH (this must be the one you went to)

Abundant Life Apostolic Church - COLUMBUS, OH

World of Pentecost COLUMBUS OH

First Apostolic Church of Reynoldsburg REYNOLDSBURG OH

Oak Grove Apostolic Church COLUMBUS OH

God Bless!

Stephen

tufluv
04-24-2003, 09:11 AM
I just had to say something,

Waterfall = washing by water. Sounds pretty simple. The spirit of GOD beginning the process of spiritual cleansing. In situations such as this, it seems one might make that connection and see it as a marvelously wondrous 'hint' from GOD.
JESUS = LIVING WATERS

I've never had such an experience, YET, but it sure sounds AWESOME! [since as I've mentioned before,I've long been intrigued by waterfallsl]
I do remember one woman many many years ago, reciting to me a very similar experience she had, and this was in a trini church!!
I was visiting baptist churches then, I went to visit my friend's church, and HER friend we went to visit at home, she's the one who told us about it, my "first" ever having heard of anything remotely holyghost-ish, it did affect me, (just a bit) I remember thinking it sounded so good, and that it was from GOD., that was over 20 yrs ago.
And see, that DID NOT lead me to seek a relationship with the LORD at that time either., so we either accept the invitation or 'hint' or not.
But thank GOD there's still time for you, to go further. Do so right away!! Your'e lucky to have had such an experience. It was a 'taste'.
Only good awaits you. :angel:

Bro.Steingass
04-24-2003, 09:25 AM
Whether we get hints at times or not, he's an on-time God. Keep praying about your experience. Maybe a fast will help God speak to you about it a little clearer.

I'll pray for you as well.

iasparrow
04-24-2003, 10:29 AM
Tufluv,

Yes, you could be right. Maybe it was a spiritual cleansing. Whatever it was meant for, it was very powerful like the grip of God's hand was over me, telling me "You belong to me, and there is more of me to be had than you know - YET!!". I think after I married and began having more experiences with God I followed his lead.

I often wonder, with as overwhelming as that encounter was - what would've happened if I had not struggled against it!!! What would he have done to me, it gives me goosebumps.

My best friend's sister is who introduced me to Turnpoint Apostolic because she is a member, she gave me a cd with the choir's music on it, they sing with the power of the Holy Ghost and it drew me there like bees to honey, I wept when heard them the first time and danced like wild person when the songs were on fire for the Lord! Sis. Darlene told my best friend she misses me there, and people I didn't even know keep asking when I am coming back, Sis. Darlene said to my best friend - "When she comes back she will need a bus to bring all the folks she is leading to the Lord, I know it!" My best friend says "Peggy, the Lord is going to use you to win your family & friends".

Just a few weeks later, my mom called me and said "I know you haven't gone back yet, but I am going to be baptized there and so is my brother!" and two weeks later they called Sis. Darlene and "We want what Peggy's got!" Sis. Darlene said "Come On Out, We're waiting for you!" They were both baptized and filled with the Holy Ghost, Praise God.... I' am getting fired up just writing this....

tufluv
04-24-2003, 11:34 PM
Alrighty then, what are ya waitin for????
Wish I could go with ya! BUT, this Sunday is a day of Revival for us, plus we're having a baptism, maybe two. So i have lots to look forward to, as always, GOD is good, and more than able to fill our lives abundantly, such as the world has never seen!
You are so very lucky to have gotten that CD for it can get you warmed up! Halleluyah!

BroDane
04-24-2003, 11:44 PM
Iasparrow,

I also encourage you to go to church

I was one,who like you, expierienced God tugging at my heart even though not filled with the Holy Ghost.

No special words are needed, No special prayers..Just Open up and Let Jesus have his wonderful way!

Pray, Yield to God all that you are, Its really simple as letting Go and letting God have his way with your life...

Its as easy as that..I am praying for you and your family

Psa 34:17 [The righteous] cry, and the LORD heareth, and delivereth them out of all their troubles.
Psa 34:18 The LORD [is] nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit.
Psa 34:19 Many [are] the afflictions of the righteous: but the LORD delivereth him out of them all.
Psa 34:20 He keepeth all his bones: not one of them is broken.
Psa 34:21 Evil shall slay the wicked: and they that hate the righteous shall be desolate.
Psa 34:22 The LORD redeemeth the soul of his servants: and none of them that trust in him shall be desolate.

The righteous cry out to God....

iasparrow
04-25-2003, 09:42 AM
Thank You to all who responded to this thread!

Your words of encouragement are very motivating, as there are
no Apostolics in my family other than my best friend, Sis. Darlene
grandma and my mother is still taking baby steps such as myself!
Sometimes Sis. Darlene is hard to reach and my friend is always on the go, and from time to time I need an Apostolic Bro or Sis I can relate to. Hopefully, along with going back to Turnpoint I will make many more friends here.

May God Bless You All!!!
Sis Rodgers

truemessianic
04-25-2003, 10:15 PM
I will be praying for you. Be assured, if you desire it, and are willing to put aside all the things of the flesh and concerns elsewhere, putting your mind solely on Jesus, you shall receive the seal of Jesus, the baptism of the Holy Ghost.

BroDane
04-26-2003, 11:18 PM
YW sis Sparrow,

I am one of 5 sisters,3 brothers, 1 wife, 2 teens and two young ones (the picture to the left, James & Katie) and I am alone in truth in my whole family.

I am NOT alone, nor am I lonely..They, are lost, and I know how you feel..

God is great! dont stop praying!

iasparrow
04-27-2003, 11:33 AM
Dear Brother Dane,

Thanks for your support, it is greatly appreciated.
When I first told my Lutheran grandparents who
we lived next door to for the first 5 years of our
marriage, that I was no longer Lutheran and that
I believed in the Gifts of the HOLY GHOST and Etc.
I knew what I was going to hear.

Lutherans do not believe in the Supernatural
Powers of the HOLY GHOST, they do not accept
that, the Lutheran's pastors and members at
least where I grew up... call Apostolics and other
like faiths "Part of The Occult" they believe the
spirit of Anti-Christ is what dwells in these churches
that speak in Tongues, since they believe that, that
was only givin to them at that time, not for now.

I will pray for you also!

Sis. Rodgers