Cherokee
05-17-2003, 05:26 AM
I am sitting here at 3:15 a.m. wondering just how much to reveal or discuss for some things are taboo or sometimes pushed under the rug and never mentioned.
First, I, like so many other women were not raised Pentecostal but came into the Truth when our world came crashing down around us. I came from the world where I was young and wanted to have a good time, married way to young and fell into a group of other miserable people where couples made the party scene,dancing,drinking and divorced. I had two little girls and at nineteen years of age I remarried a man that had five children that lived with their mother who also remarried
a man from the same group. The man I married had one daughter and four sons. That made me the mother of seven children that I came to love and inherited after the death of their mother shortly thereafter. The children were 10,8,6,4,and 3 and my girls were 3 and 16 months old.
The story I am about to tell is not to bring condemnation on any but is to open possibly a door that someone else may be walking in that does not know what to do with their pain.
I had told Ddc that I would write about the wreck and the being taken up by God into the timeless place and hearing God say it was to late for her but I need to lay a little ground work here.
These children's mother was very young also and the man she married did the trail ride thing nearly every weekend so my husband was a truck driver and I would pick the kids up every other weekend and take them home on Sunday afternoon but it was many days that no one was home and I would not leave these children alone to wait for them to get home at some part of the night so I would take them back home with me as the children would beg me to keep them. They were afraid of their stepfather as he would get to drinking and beat and drag their mother by the hair of the head until she was a bloody mess and sometime sent to the emergency room for care.
This situation went on for five years and many court appearances due to conflict over the children. It was during the last part of the fifth year that we started to a Baptist church and finally wound up at the UPC Church because of all the conflict over the children and the courts.
It was during this time that God changed the direction our lives would take and their mother was killed and the kids placed into my hands.
When I wrote the title for this, Let there be Light and there was Light, just remember when God begins to send Light the deeds of darkness will be revealed.
It was the Aug. after the accident in Feb. that I received the Holy Ghost. The pressure from raising five children who loved me before the accident and now was very angry because they felt guilty and disloyal to their mother for begging to live with me drove me to my knees before God.
Their Dad did not always help the situation as guilt or whatever he was feeling caused much conflict between my little girls and his three younger boys. The youngest boys were 11,9, and 8 and my daughters were now 8 and 6.
I spent many hours in prayer over being a mother to all these children and I loved them and because of the Holy Ghost understood their pain.
I continued to take them to Church. Their Dad would go when he was home.
I kept on trying to live for God even though many other situations arose where the enemy came to steal,kill and destroy and God kept impressing me He had placed these children in my care for one purpose.
Through these years I found out the man that I loved had clay feet and all was not what I had thought things were.
The day my baby girl turned 14 a situation happened and Light was shown on darkness.
She told me that her stepfather that she called daddy and had raised her had molested my other daughter when she was 11 or 12 years old. She had already married and had a child that I was now raising because the baby belonged to my stepson and the day I found out about the baby was the week the stepson married another girl.
When I found out about my husband was several years later. I went to my Pastor and he took my situation to the La. UPC Board and they sent word to me through him that whatever I did, if I stayed or left, God would not hold it against me. I did not have an education,we still had a son and daughter at home and my world had just came crashing down and we had a granddaughter two years old that loved her granddaddy.
Did he go to Church? Yes. Did he ever have an experience with God? Yes. I had been called to the ministry and now the devil worked overtime.
As light came into the darkness many other devastating things were revealed and various affairs along the trucking route. Did I pray? All the time. I was the mother of 7 children and had been put in charge of ther spiritual training. Did God release me? Not for years. Our marriage relationship was dying.
Has any good come from this? The oldest daughter(His) has the Holy Ghost and has twin miracle daughters and her husband that are living for God.
The father of the grandchild is now a UPC preacher and the grandaughter is married to an evangelist (UPC)
After the granddaughter married and left home God released me from my marriage to their Dad. Today he has the Holy Ghost and stays close to the son and his family and they attend church together. The granddaughter is still close to her grandfather.
My baby daughter is still living for God. All of my grandchildren have had the Holy Ghost and are married now and their spouses have received the Holy Ghost.
My daughter that was molested is still having problems but she knows the Truth and she knows the Way home but she got into the world of drugs early in her life and desperately needs prayer.
Three of the boys are not living for God but two of them once were filled with the Holy Ghost when they were younger.
Through much counciling with my Pastor's over the years I finally forgave myself for not knowing what was going on in my home even though I was trying to raise these children for God.
I have left the names out because God has forgiven and saved souls that once were lost but I have told some of the story because I know it happens in the midst of the camp and someone else may need help.
Many miracles took place during these trials. I hope to share them with you sometime.
The Bible is full of man's transgressions as well as the victories. There is Light in the darkness.
Love Ya' in Jesus!!! Cherokee
First, I, like so many other women were not raised Pentecostal but came into the Truth when our world came crashing down around us. I came from the world where I was young and wanted to have a good time, married way to young and fell into a group of other miserable people where couples made the party scene,dancing,drinking and divorced. I had two little girls and at nineteen years of age I remarried a man that had five children that lived with their mother who also remarried
a man from the same group. The man I married had one daughter and four sons. That made me the mother of seven children that I came to love and inherited after the death of their mother shortly thereafter. The children were 10,8,6,4,and 3 and my girls were 3 and 16 months old.
The story I am about to tell is not to bring condemnation on any but is to open possibly a door that someone else may be walking in that does not know what to do with their pain.
I had told Ddc that I would write about the wreck and the being taken up by God into the timeless place and hearing God say it was to late for her but I need to lay a little ground work here.
These children's mother was very young also and the man she married did the trail ride thing nearly every weekend so my husband was a truck driver and I would pick the kids up every other weekend and take them home on Sunday afternoon but it was many days that no one was home and I would not leave these children alone to wait for them to get home at some part of the night so I would take them back home with me as the children would beg me to keep them. They were afraid of their stepfather as he would get to drinking and beat and drag their mother by the hair of the head until she was a bloody mess and sometime sent to the emergency room for care.
This situation went on for five years and many court appearances due to conflict over the children. It was during the last part of the fifth year that we started to a Baptist church and finally wound up at the UPC Church because of all the conflict over the children and the courts.
It was during this time that God changed the direction our lives would take and their mother was killed and the kids placed into my hands.
When I wrote the title for this, Let there be Light and there was Light, just remember when God begins to send Light the deeds of darkness will be revealed.
It was the Aug. after the accident in Feb. that I received the Holy Ghost. The pressure from raising five children who loved me before the accident and now was very angry because they felt guilty and disloyal to their mother for begging to live with me drove me to my knees before God.
Their Dad did not always help the situation as guilt or whatever he was feeling caused much conflict between my little girls and his three younger boys. The youngest boys were 11,9, and 8 and my daughters were now 8 and 6.
I spent many hours in prayer over being a mother to all these children and I loved them and because of the Holy Ghost understood their pain.
I continued to take them to Church. Their Dad would go when he was home.
I kept on trying to live for God even though many other situations arose where the enemy came to steal,kill and destroy and God kept impressing me He had placed these children in my care for one purpose.
Through these years I found out the man that I loved had clay feet and all was not what I had thought things were.
The day my baby girl turned 14 a situation happened and Light was shown on darkness.
She told me that her stepfather that she called daddy and had raised her had molested my other daughter when she was 11 or 12 years old. She had already married and had a child that I was now raising because the baby belonged to my stepson and the day I found out about the baby was the week the stepson married another girl.
When I found out about my husband was several years later. I went to my Pastor and he took my situation to the La. UPC Board and they sent word to me through him that whatever I did, if I stayed or left, God would not hold it against me. I did not have an education,we still had a son and daughter at home and my world had just came crashing down and we had a granddaughter two years old that loved her granddaddy.
Did he go to Church? Yes. Did he ever have an experience with God? Yes. I had been called to the ministry and now the devil worked overtime.
As light came into the darkness many other devastating things were revealed and various affairs along the trucking route. Did I pray? All the time. I was the mother of 7 children and had been put in charge of ther spiritual training. Did God release me? Not for years. Our marriage relationship was dying.
Has any good come from this? The oldest daughter(His) has the Holy Ghost and has twin miracle daughters and her husband that are living for God.
The father of the grandchild is now a UPC preacher and the grandaughter is married to an evangelist (UPC)
After the granddaughter married and left home God released me from my marriage to their Dad. Today he has the Holy Ghost and stays close to the son and his family and they attend church together. The granddaughter is still close to her grandfather.
My baby daughter is still living for God. All of my grandchildren have had the Holy Ghost and are married now and their spouses have received the Holy Ghost.
My daughter that was molested is still having problems but she knows the Truth and she knows the Way home but she got into the world of drugs early in her life and desperately needs prayer.
Three of the boys are not living for God but two of them once were filled with the Holy Ghost when they were younger.
Through much counciling with my Pastor's over the years I finally forgave myself for not knowing what was going on in my home even though I was trying to raise these children for God.
I have left the names out because God has forgiven and saved souls that once were lost but I have told some of the story because I know it happens in the midst of the camp and someone else may need help.
Many miracles took place during these trials. I hope to share them with you sometime.
The Bible is full of man's transgressions as well as the victories. There is Light in the darkness.
Love Ya' in Jesus!!! Cherokee